Insomniac Music Theater: Believe

I am hiding from some beast but the beast was always here
Watching without eyes because the beast is just my fear
That I am just nothing, now it’s just what I’ve become
What am I waiting for?
Its already done

I definitely used to do this a lot more often… I don’t know why I don’t, but I’d like to at least try to start the year updating this regularly. 10:58pm on day 1 seems about right. This is a continuation of a post I started (decided on a song) and proceeded to save it as a draft and never touch it again. I’ll need to shorten the lyrics probably. But I’m not sure which part I want to use yet. I had forgotten about this song. My favorite The Bravery song is An Honest Mistake, but this one is up there.

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Bleugh

Hey you with the pretty face
Welcome to the human race
A celebration
Mr. Blue Sky’s up there waitin’
And today
Is the day we’ve waited for…oorrr

https://youtu.be/Hjj5Xaii9oY

So not only did I get moved to a department that’s DOA (as of the 5th day after I was moved), given a role that’s way over my head, and the two most knowledgeable guys in the dept having left over the past 4 weeks…
Now my manager is on paternal leave, my only other direct coworker is taking interview after interview since the department is going away around the end of April.

I’ve been told I’m being put back into my old role, though it sounds like the plan is to not have as many in that department either, so I’m potentially going back into the same fire. There’s also a 3rd dept that wants me to move there, and have a void to fill, so that may be the best option for everyone involved.

Insomniac Music Theater: Back In Time

So take me away, I don’t mind
But you better promise me, I’ll be back in time

I only write in this thing when I have something going on. Mostly. I only publish when I have something going on. I have my weeks/months where I don’t necessarily feel like anything is wrong, I just want to be to myself except for the few moments where I come up for air. Though lately it’s gotten deeper than it normally does. Despite sticking to home and small events, I generally will tweet or instagram up a storm, but lately I’ve pretty much fallen off the face of the earth, mostly. Tweets, which have at times been in the range of 20+ per day, have averaged out to about 3 per day over the past 3 months, and even that was usually on Sundays or during Rockets games. Continue reading

Insomniac Music Theater: Drive

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can’t help but ask myself how much I’ll let the fear
take the wheel and steer.

It’s driven me before,
And it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal.
But lately I’m beginning to find that I
should be the one behind the wheel.

Good news, everyone! I’m unemployed after October 31st.

Yeah.
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